Cling to you, holding you with both my arms and comforting me into your bosoms while my eyes were closed, my soul starts drifting towards somewhere, some new place. Somewhere I have never witnessed before. And it start trembling with fear knowing I am all alone, but suddenly and as always the warmth of your goodness give solace to my heart. Suddenly the axiom that “life is tough” changes into “life is beautiful”. And why not it should be for anyone...

If he gets your company while travelling,

If he gets your love while nestling,

If he gets your chest while crying,

If he gets your shoulder while fighting,

If he gets your lap for cuddling,

If he gets your lips for kissing,

If he gets your presence while hugging,

Alas...

If anyone could see, the pattern of your love for me

They would know, even god seldom get the love which I have for thee. 

Some birds arn't made to be caged, their feathers are just too bright Posted by Rajdip Biswas ,Tuesday, January 17, 2012 at 6:21 AM,

In the movie “Shawswank Redemption” this phrase was used for the character Andrew Buffet and not for any real bird. This metaphor may hold some meaning in the free world but a place like prison where people can’t squeezes a drop without asking permission for it, these words are alien. This film produced by: Niki Marvin directed by: Frank Darabont and acted perfectly by narrator Morgan Freeman (Red) and Tim Robbins (Andrew) is one of my favourite. Not just it shows how a man crawl 500 yards of shit smelling foulness for his freedom and how no prison can keep the thoughts behind bars and take away your internal freedom but also this movie display numerous encounter which are as clear as crystal.

The scene where brooks completed his sentence and after coming out writes to his inmates about the outside world. Explaining about how fast things move on the outside and for an old chap like him how difficult it is to keep pace with it. Very well it portrait the life of a full baked institutionalised man.

Also the part where Andrew Buffet uses his wit and acumen for winning the trust of jail staffs including the warden and single-handedly manage the entire unofficial dirty works. The part where on the command of the warden he manages to siphon the money supposed to be used on Shawswank’s infrastructure into the name of some hypothetical person’s identity. And when one fine day Red curiously ask about it Andrew said “the funny thing is, on the outside I was a honest man, straight as an arrow I have to come to the prison to be a crook”.

This movie is very inspirational one. Every part of it teaches something but the part I like most is which runs through the entire length of movie but mostly get unnoticed. The part shows how the persona of Andrew gets changed after his escape from jail not just within his friends but also with the foes. Before his escape from Shawswank, Andrew was just another man who had a good rapport with the jail official but love to keep in himself. He considered as a week target due to which the “sister group” also target him numerous times. But after his escape, overnight he becomes a hero. Every single person was talking about him. It came with such disbelief for the warden that he lost his speech. Very subtle way but with a big impact this movie shows that until you do something unexpected and drop the bombs around, people will take you lightly even if they know your potential.

Life is beautiful Posted by Rajdip Biswas ,Thursday, July 21, 2011 at 5:49 AM,

Have you ever broken totally from your inside? Have you ever felt the shattered pieces of your dreams stabbing your soul? Have you ever encountered such trouble where you feel deep disgust and nauseating up to your core such intensely that it almost makes you vomit? When your self esteem and pungent reality are in constant vendetta and the verdict seems impossible. When the mirror laugh at your face and you cry with such a shrill that it rips your flesh out of your bones but fails to touch the eardrum of others. Where your bad luck hit you hard and not just once but continuously and almost every time when you muster some courage and achieved little balance and succeed in pulling yourself back from the last whirlpool of your sick fate. Where there is no one to put blame for. When every single responsibility is on your shoulder and the burden is so intense that it pushes you into the earth. When you feel like your life is worth dying for. Where there is no one to take support from and, you simply don’t have the option to share it. Where the fact being, you known that this fight is yours and you have to handle it by your own. Where you are the only soldier in the battle against your ill fate. Have you ever been in this situation? Have you ever felt your heart thumping so furiously that all other senses become numb and thoughts get vaporized? When every passing moment bringing your soul closer to morbid stand-still. When this misfortune of yours take such a mammoth shape that your inner being get terrified and you wrap yourself with a threadbare cloth and tremblingly sits in a corner of your dark room. When you become so maladjusted that no longer you are certain that the darkness is caused by your inner sickness or the room is just not lit.

Sitting there for a long time and mulling about how to get out of this burden. How to break the shackle of your fate which traps you totally. Sitting there for a long time like a carcass who has been strike by his ill-fate. Sitting there the only physical thing which you can feel is the hot air you are inhaling and exhaling from your nostril. Sitting down you start to focus how your chest get expanded and contracted by the inflow and outflow of your breath. And then suddenly its strike you, this realization that you are still breathing, that you are still alive. That live is all about living it and since you are alive you still have the chance to live your life, and you can’t let this opportunity go, since “life is beautiful”. That you have a chance to change your ill-fate and turn it into good fortune. And suddenly for the first time at this point you realize that this fear is not you rather a transformation in yourself which continuously makes you realize that you are the architect of your fate and the choice is yours to make it or break it. You close your eyes and you can feel your inner self, whisper in your ears that “you are breathing, you are alive”. And just then, suddenly and swiftly, you realize the loosing grip against your skeleton. That the breadth you take fills your chest with courage and give you that extra push, that there is aroma of freedom in the air. And for the first time you feel relieved. For the first time you don’t feel the heaviness of your sick fate but the lightness of your courage and knowledge. For the first time you feel vindicated. For the first time you feel victorious and you murmur to yourself with a complacent smile….“life is beautiful”.

THE BLESSED CHILD Posted by Rajdip Biswas ,Wednesday, July 6, 2011 at 6:22 AM,

I am the blessed child.

The most privileged one.

I am the child of god.

I know no fear

I have no restriction

Neither do I fall into any jurisdiction.

I have no law to abide for

I have no one to take care for

No one can hold me back from being myself.

My actions are free.

No one can judge them,

Neither do I bother to justify them.

No one can hold me accountable for anything.

Because I am the chosen few,

Because I am the blessed one,

I am the child of god.

Chaos and Order Posted by Rajdip Biswas ,Wednesday, May 11, 2011 at 2:53 AM,

Till few days back I had a vague perception about “Chaos and Order”. By definition Chaos and Order have completely different meaning. One makes thing other breaks it, one delineate rules other shatter them all. But somewhere I had this vague belief that there should be some correlation between them that can’t be grabbed by naked eyes. Something more than what a lexicon suggest. This perception of mine gets vindicated the day one of my close friends tells me about the “Butterfly Effect”. Something which says that one flap of a butterfly could dramatically change the course of action of weather in coming future in a profound way. Needless to say, initially it sounds bizarre to me eardrum. For our logical minds it’s something which doesn’t make any sense. But I am fortunate that I am not soaked into my own belief system. I love to shatter any old dogma. And that’s when I googled about it and to my amazement this discovery doesn’t just say about the flap of one butterfly but the idea is so profound that the name coined for this theory is “The Theory of Everything”.

The Theory of Everything.....Huh!!! Isn’t that’s what our scientist community is trying to achieve. And if this theory compliments its name don’t you think that it should be the holy grail of our science. These questions baffled me so much that I thought I should take a look inside this theory and as I learned more about it it’s became clear that why majority of scientist community don’t acknowledge it. And it’s not just because no one can predict its outcome but also because it has no set of laws. Because the pillars of this theory are based on Chaos and Order. Because it says that out of Chaos order form itself and these Order form the next Chaos. It’s kind of repetition and the best selection out of it get promoted into the next level of Chaos and Order. Einstine once said that God don’t play checkered but I guess if god is playing checkered this is how god plays it. And these best selected one pass its excellence for the next set of Order and Chaos.

Darwin said...“Evolution continuous”. This theory says how it continuous. The next pertinent question should be why it continuous. Needless to say it’s a challenge thrown to our scientific community.

I am really excited to know about the outcome of this why part, but more so to evident that if this Theory of Everything is true how it helps us to take this fragile human consciousness of ours to the next level.

Lyrics of EMPTINESS Posted by Rajdip Biswas ,Wednesday, February 23, 2011 at 9:40 PM,

‘‘Tune mere jana-Kabhi nahi jana-Ishq mera dard mera’’

Ohh love of mine..

with a song and a whine..

You’re harsh and divine..

like truths and a lie..

but the tale end’s not here..

I’ve nothing to fear..

for my love is yell of giving and hold on…

in the bright emptiness..

in a room full of it..

is the cruel mistress ohh ho…

I feel the sunrise..

that nest all hollowness..

for i have no way to go.. not come…

And i feel so lonely yeah..

There’s a better place from this emptiness..

And i’m so lonely yeah..

There’s a better place from this emptiness.. yei yei yei ya….

Aa.. aa.. aa…..

Tune mere jaana..

Kabhi nahi jana..

Ishq mera dard mera.. haaye…

Tune mere jaana..

Kabhi nahi jana..

Ishq mera dard mera …

Aashiq teraaa..

Bheed mein khoya rehta hai..

Jaane jahaan Aa.. aa.. aa…....

Puchho toh itna kehta hai..

And i feel so lonely yeah..

There’s a better place from this emptiness..

And i’m so lonely yeah..

There’s a better place from this emptiness.. yei yei yei ya….

Aa.. aa.. aa…..

ROHAN RATHORE a true lover from IIT Guwahati was suffering from cancer. He sang this song for Supriya a girl he loved more than anything and anyone in the world. Unfortunately she didn't return his love but this song was something he felt he had to do. He died just 15 days after recording this song.

Download the song from http://bit.ly/rohan_rathore

The day I wake from serenity Posted by Rajdip Biswas ,Wednesday, December 23, 2009 at 3:49 AM,

You like dew fallen on woods, like the dawn after a long peach dark night, like a fresh breath of air, like the cacophony of birds while spring hits the corner, like the aroma of soil wafting across after the first rain. Yes it’s you baby. Smell like honey, fairer then milk, lips softer then rose pallets, eyes luminous enough to hold my breath...Nectar of youth. Yes it’s you....an epitome of soft and tender love.
I am afraid but till now I never dreamed about you. I beg my pardon but till now I never fall for you. Oh baby don’t you ever think that you mean nothing to me. God knows how much I admire you, love you, and cherish you. I care for you sweetheart. The desire of having you is so strong so profound, I always afraid that just dreaming about you can make me mad. It would be like a wildfire. I knew it’s palpable, I knew that just dreaming about you can crave me, corrode me. I was just trying to control that temptation. You know baby that I can’t hold myself back from embrace you, love you, kiss you, play with you, watching you smiling and lost myself into it....While you gazing at me with sweet juvenile but enigmatic eyes, forcing me to think that even the deepest secret is known to you, while my heart starts thumping hard, your sudden breathtaking smile make me feel like moron. Oh what a moment that would be......Yes you are the reflection of my love, the key of all my secrets.
The day I wake from this beautiful serenity, the day your arrival was sealed and conformed by my alter ego, I was in awe. A calm breeze holding the conformation of your arrival waft across my ears, enter through it and what’s radiated out was fatherhood. It unleashes all my soft and tender feelings for you. Sardonically one half of mine was quivering hard, convincing myself.......“So what if you have taken a different path to reach up to me, the destination is predefined, yes its predefined baby that you are mine. It doesn’t matter from where your genesis coming from, what matters is where future will take you to. I am confident enough that future is holding me too into his frame of time with you”. Other half of mine was smiling in complacent manner as if I was waiting for this moment, holding few droplets in my eyes and few passing my chicks, my smiling lips and dangling on my chin. As if just now I got another reason, another reason to live, another reason to die for.
From that day till now, I am waiting for you baby. So what if our rendezvous has postponed by few months, so what if there are few hurdles in our path, so what if I need to put a little halt in my unquenchable desire to hold you. You are my little angel baby and no one can hold us back from this tryst. The day is near, we will meet baby. The serendipity is coming. Oh please come soon I am waiting for you.